lama dah cheq tak update blogggg

hai u olss... apa khabar!!! lama dah tak upload blog.. maklumlah , sibuk dengan kilen sana sini, projek juta2 jer.. tak pernah i buat projek beribu. kalau projek beribu, baik i buat kandang kambing. takpun kandang lembu. eh,, merapu la pulak.. maklumlah, tengah cuti2 ni. kepala pun mamai. suka mimpi di siang hari. walaupun ak tak tidur.

bercakap pasal cuti ni.... korang ingat tak bosan ker??? bosan wooo... baik aku study kat u... sebab apa aku cakap mcm tu? sebab boleh pegang duit sendiri. nak lepak kat kl pon boleh. nak beli sana beli sini... jumpa kawan... semua tu kalau tak rasa, memang rugi... biasalah study life was very fun. kepada yang suka dan rindu nak balik kampung tu, memang tak boleh nak kata apa lah sebab rumah dia orang. tapi bukannya stick kat rumah pon balik kampung...

bila bercakap pasal cuti ni,... apa jer la aku boleh buat. tido makan berak la aku boleh buat dan mampu lakukan... urmmm selagi aku tak kerja... selagi tu la aku pakat meroyan kat fb... sapa la nak paham jiwa aku ni dik non... yang penting... aku tak hipokrit. aku peduli apa kalau org anggap aku macam2... takde kene mengena ngan dia orang. kalau bagi aku makan takper la jugak... nak kata aku ni kaki perasan ke...koya ke... apa aku duli...

eh ke situ pulak... sesaja nak tulis ni sebenarnya... kepada yang rajin membaca sahaja...

what do you expect

well semenjak aku menjadi guru pelatih dekat sekolah indera mahkota... aku rasa banyak pengalaman aku dapat. berhadapan dengan pelbagai komuniti... budak, guru... sesuatu yang baru buat ku.. 25 haribulan 7 dah 5 minggu aku kat sekolah ni... aku rasa seronok dengan sekolah yang aku ajar...

pendidikan seni.. subjek yang paling aku minat dan master.. sudah semestinya aku membawa satu perubahan kepada seni... dah tiba masanya.. aku jadikan mereka berkemahiran dalam seni.. seni sesuatu yang unik utk diperkembangkan.. utk di jadikan sebagai... panduan dalam hidup...

hahaha... seni mencakupi segalanya... dan itulah yang aku bagi makan kepada pelajar ku... wahhh rasa pelik mempunyai pelajar sendiri.. tetapi aku kan cikgu.. hehehe.... pengalaman mendewasakan kita... dan pelajar aku mendewasakan aku untuk berfikir dengan lebih matang..

budak nakal, pasif, aktif, semua aku suka... sikap mereka... minat mereka... aku rasa aku bersama dengan mereka... aku memandang mereka sebagai rebung yang perlu dilentur... perlu berlajar disiplin sebagai seorang manusia sebenarnya...

alhamdulilah setakat ni... mereka mula menanam minat dalam seni... bukan mudah... tapi itu la cabaran.. dan aku berjaya yakinkan mereka... kali ni aku betul2 rasa sebagai seorang khalifah... sebagai seorang pendidik... yang penting... hati aku yang mahukan mereka untuk terus berjaya...

semester 6 punya cerita

tup tup dah semester 6... banyak kenangan yang menjadi kenangan. ada yang sedih , kecewa, gembira dan sebagainya. selalunya, itulah yang menjadi satu permulaan cerita untuk kita ceritakan kepada public kerana setiap hari merupakan CERITA.

projek, assignment memang banyak. dan apa yang penting sem ni aku akan buat yang terbaik. dan aku takan sia-siakan peluang ini untuk dapat 4 flat!!! yah!!! gambate!!!

apa yang paling penting especially towards my friend.... marilah kita mencipta keazaman yang baru dan semangat yang baru dalam menempuh masalah yang bakal dihadapi dengan nyata. kesemua ini akan ada hikmahnya. cuma ingat satu perakara, hanya Allah tempat kita meluah tatkala kita ada masalah. jangan sesekali mengetpikannya... rajin bertanya, proaktif... positif dan no negatif!!! okat kawan2... good luck... semoga diakhirnya berakhir dengan senyuman.

do you think u strong enough???

love is killing? noooo love is expensive

when u talking about love... we simply say that... the love is beautiful, extraordinary, feel everything. But what im trying to say... people who live with loved is a people who very LUCKY. u know what i mean? first of all... love is very crazy to get it. To understand a people, u have to be hypocrite, so called passion and so called make u happy. The truth is, U.. yourself also need a same thing. BEING LOVED.

Why? because u also a human being. Homo sapiens can only get what is homo sapiens do. So dont be hopeful what u have right now. in fact, this is some task that related to your lust. Love that truly expensive can only being achieve by someone who ready to sacrifice, understand the faith of your love one and sincere to accept it handsomely.

Being apart of this worlds, not care if u a transsexual, gay, lesbian, bi, or straight, u have to understand what is your really desire through what u claim as a true love. No one have a correct define through himself, therefore is quite obvious to define a true love mean.

It sounds look very complicated, but the one who stick with the game which just being play, let me guess, it all because of lust.... U see she or he have a good looking, u easily fall in loved... and hope someday we will together for ever.... hahahahaha... the funniest thing about our world is LIES.Happen anywhere. In case u still blurr... let me get u clear...

First, u just have a little chit chat with him or her.... then, u quite want to know him more further instead of he 0r her have a good looking... than get a same story that u can share and like to talked about it. In the mean time, impress, hypocrite, so called care will take over as in case u want to meet him. So start we a AGREEMENT that being perfectly organised, u meet him all of sudden. So bla bla bla... go to some place that interesting us to see.... and the end, end up with SEX.

In this world, i likely to say, we are really notty, because of our past that not enough loved. loved can get anywhere but true love dont... who care if u hurt, pain and have deep argony??? because the one that u love have a same history too... so dont hope it to much!...

people never satisfy... and they will still searching for the perfect one... even though he is not perfect but trust me... god is very fair... if u behave what r u today, u will get couple that also same like u... any how, get use to it if u don have a true loved...

gay and lesbian people... be POSITIVE,,, what ever it is... u were lucky not to born as a handicap and effortless person... just your heart need to sacrifice. We have to know... there are many task that we have to faced! So dont be cruel and too judgmental towards what u faced right now... it may have a blessing on disguised... So not to ask u be more gay... to ask u be more normal and stand for the right path! right nature! and right for yourself in the hereafter...

so who get THE TRUE LOVED please inform me... but i love to say this word.... "saya tak mampu nak mencintai awak, saya hanya mampu menyanyangi awak... saya hanya letakkan cinta saya pada yang satu iaitu Allah" i have define my desire.... so i hope u too :)

so high!!!!!!! i can see all of u!!!

this is what i called, heaven in earth.. realize or not... when i see a cameron highland,,, im just say that is the perfect place to create master piece beyond of that nature... greeny , wide, cool, fresh... oh my god.... i speechless with the BEAUTIFUL OF EARTH... so talking about my experience when go to cameron highland.... actually .... VERY CRAZY...

we go to the cameron... by 13.. and the next day which mean 14 .. i go back to kuching... so from tanjung malim to cameron highland is quite far.... im afraid that when we go back to tanjung malim... we stuck at anywhere so i dont hope it... because the next day is my flight... urghhhhh so crazy plan but very adventure !!!!!!!! i and with my other friend have decided to make a sandwish... hahaha so each of us collect ten ringgit... im the one who very excited because im offer myself to make it.... so i wake up so early in the morning and make the sandwish... luckily my roomate help me to eat hahahaha thanks to Saiful yahya .. credit to him! hahahah lol... but i very miss my time with my mom ... making nasi lemak at 4.00 am

so we start our trip by Amir car... heheheh... the reason why we go to the cameron is... we got a car to travel anywhere..

the long trip... the long distance and quite greeny everywhere... i fill so lovely to get myself lucky before i go back to kuching the next day.... urmmmm i thankful to my friend that make a rushing plan nevertheless.... im fine with it... so before we go to the cameron... i fill the coldness surrounding ... and i start to chill... because cameron vallley uhhhhh very cold! what the most thing that i cant stand is... the coldness water. seriously i think cameron people dont have to take a bath.......! what on earth!!! hahahahah

orang asli is the biggest race at the place... so all the way go to the cameron hill... have orang asli that sell honey, handy craft and durian...luckly not sell a livestock hahahaha... the cultural is so rich with original of people that live at valley and hill... making a house from bamboo... it quite interesting...

the more we go to the destination, the excited we were be... hahaha... so to short the story... we already at the half of the cameron highland... Tanah rata... so this place is a small town that have lots of facility and accommodation to stay... urmmm just like a smallville town... or a cowboy... so many tourist from london ... when i walk at the street im delusion that i at oversea hahahah : P

talking about cameron highland... so much thing and farm to see... wild plant... big flower... flamboyant color... so rich with nature and flower are everywhere ... bizarre plant.... what a wonderful experience... uhhhh let me introduce the farm at the cameron highland....

1. strawberry

2.mushroom

3. rose farm

4. vegetables

5. butterfly

6. cactus

7... pig ( just kidding hahahaha)

yet... it was a very fantastic palace to visit... lots of farm that we visit have they own unique and how the owner create his farm... want to buy any fresh vegetable like white carrots... cabbage.. uuuu so cheap and worthy.... what i like about the cameron is.... rm 10 u can buy lots of vegetables.... strawberry u cant easily pick from they farm,.. u have to buy it... but seriously .. u have to wisely choose and buy it or else.. u will get the rotten and sour strawberry... :( which i already buy the rotten strawberry... huhuhuhu...

the barrier while we have a trip is rain!!!! arghhhhh with chill environment ... how can we bear with the rain that just like snow... until my breath have a vapor .... so talking about the cultural... every where u will see a strawberry t shirt, souvenir, strawberry tea, jam... ohhh so much pink at the town...beside that... tea is a major product that being popular at cameron... which the factory to make a tea boh especially is at cameron... so we also visit the factory ....

story about the tea farm... of course u will see a beautiful of arrangement the tea being planted ... but the fact is, not the beautiful as we get near... so called tea goodies but do i care! hahahaha so about the tea product... u can get lemon flavour, strawberry, papermint, capucino, vanila, lemon grass.... at the original tea BOH factory..... quite expensive but worthy to buy.... not all the product being sell... but if u lucky... u will find the place that really cheap...

talking about vegetables... what can i say... so cheap and i think... if i stay at cameron... surely i practice to eat fresh vegetables everyday.... so that i can get healthier than ever... hehehe :) fresh wind that blew on my face... i fill so calm and get the real tranquility that i wish before....

i really appreciate what god create... so love it Allah.... thanks thanks thanks Allah!!! inspire from cameron.... i will create my master piece later.....

urmmmm by the way.... back from cameron... we have lots thing to buy... especially strawberry, keychain, and tea.... urmmmmm what ever it is... thanks to my friend... saiful (roomate ) shidi, amir (the driver) and also zuki... thanks to you... thanks also to my mom and dad that support me with penny.... :P if not... im just sit back and not shopping. hahahahaah... : P

hai the human who concern me!

water color painting... the white rose... finish 1.1.2012. i never give a try to finish my painting but this time.... what ever it is i determine to finish it... i will do my best... the white rose is usually symbolic to a purity, innocence yet the graceful of all color... what i mean is... so sacred and holy.... by the way.. what i like about the rose is... the flower that i never found it anywhere... the flower that have a thorn although it beautiful to see... the blooming... the color and so with the philosophy that being insert on the beautiful flower.... exactly... there have they on story why i like the rose.... maybe i will not try to story it... but trust me... the story is very sad... indeed a nightmare to me.... heheheh

hope all of you really appreciate what is art... what is the contained of art... and what is the beautiful behind the stroke of the brush... really..! important...

sometime.. i gladly to say that...this is the gateway to express your feeling to visual something what do you think beautiful... the beautiful around us have to be explore... and the beautiful that we see need to be convert in to a painting... or what ever as long that u can express your feeling... to me... i have my own define about art...

"art can get crazy to know it and to overcome nevertheless provide the logical thinking trough out what is right now, past and future because art is with you"

so if u can get what is my meaning... art is free... its simple and no need to get rigid in certain issue yet to get appropriate in drawing. lets just say... when u want to let go your chaotic mind that always on a war, u just express it till u satisfy on the drawing block...

brush stroke... childish drawing... color playing.... u just let it happen in the world that u create in the white paper.....