keakraban terserlah tq ira

thanks to ira sebab bawa mijan g makan kat umah ira... kali pertama di pelawa makan bersama... terasa bersyukur sangat2 kerana kita dihargai... kali pertama juga disambut mesra tanpa rasa kita ini bukan orang asing....

gembira... itulah yang dapat aku ungkapkan... kerana seolah-olah pertolongan kita dibalas dengan keikhlasan... thanks sangat2... aku sebenarnya cukup menghargai apa sahaja yang mereka bagi padaku... walaupun aku tidak pernah mengharap sedikit pun ... : )

padaku.. pemberian orang pada ku... tidak kiralah dalam bentuk apa jua sekali pun... aku amat bersyukur kerana bukan mudah orang buat macam tu kat kita.... tidak pernah sekali pun aku merasakan sesuatu yang bernilai selain dari pemberian orang...

aku bersyukur dengan semua itu ya Allah kerana rezeki... bukan bermaksud aku mengada-ngada untuk tulis blog dan menceritakan kebaikan kawan2 ku... tapi apa yang aku lihat ialah sesuatu yang jarang berlaku pada ku...

siapa lah aku sampai orang sanggup menelrfon ku dan mengajak aku makan bersama? sejujurnya.. aku jarang mahu makan bersama kawan2 ku... kerana aku memang jenis tidak suka makan beramai-ramai... tetapi kali ini aku dapat rasakan keikhlasan terserlah.... syukur pada mu ya Allah..

walaupun orang anggap ini satu benda biasa... tapi bagi ku pula... dari kecik.. aku tidak pernah bahagia bersama kawan2 ku.... tapi kali ini... Kau memberiku sesuatu yang bernilai... thanks ira... kaulah kawan ku dunia dan akhirat... moga,,, ira cepat sembuh... moga ira dapat menempuh hari2 yang mendatang dengan sihat...:) yang penting, selagi mijan kat upsi ni... kalau mijan boleh tolong... mijan tolong.... mijan ucap thanks... kat ira sebab susah2 jer masak daging korban... kalau ira nk tahu.. first time mijan makan daging korban... tqtqtqtqtq...

akhir kata... rasa dihargai dan dipedulikan....

gumbiraaaaa

kenapa aku cakap mcm tu? sebab aku kadang2 tak memahami orang... tak mahu menilai baik buruk sebelum melakukan satu tindakan... aku cuba untuk memahami... setiap jiwa manusia... tapi adakah mereka sedar apa yang aku lakukan kerana aku menyayangi mereka??? tapi aku tertanya,,, siapa yang menyayangi aku? aku ingin sekali bertemu orang yang mcm tu.... mengambil berat pasal kita... menasihati kita... berfikiran matang.... seronoknya dapat kawan yang mcm tu...

dalam hati ni dan setiap hari... aku merasakan sebak bila orang yang kita sayang akan pergi secara perlahan. sebab manusia selalu cepat bosan... tapi terus terang aku katakan... aku tidak cepat bosan dengan orang... aku akan terus menyayangi orang itu walaupun dia pergi meninggalkn aku.... bertapa seksanya jiwa aku kerana ada jiwa yang suka pada orang tapi belum tentu lagi orang suka dekat kita...

terdetik dihati aku... aku tidak mahu mengambil berat.. tapi apakan daya itulah aku.... ak tidak dapat menipu diri sendiri.. apatah lagi org lain... sejujurnya aku mahu jadi org yang jujur.... aku bukan jenis yang hipokrit dengan apa yang aku rasa... namun bila kita terlalu menyayangi org... orang akan rimas dengan kita....

kenapa hati aku ni diduga dengan sedemikian rupa??? nak sayang rasa tak patut... tak nak sayang bukan diriku pula... sejujurnya aku bukan lah org tidak berhati perut... aku sayang ... dan hati aku penuh dengan perasaan... tapi ramai orang yang tidak perasan....

kehadiran aku ini... hanya Allah sahaja yang melihat... mungkin apa yang aku cakapkan ini... ramai yang menafikannya... tapi itu lah yang aku rasa.... sebelum aku mengundur diri... aku mahu ucapkan terima kasih kepada kawan sejatiku yang jatuh dan bangun bersama... yang sentiasa mengambil berat dan luah padaku... kerana kepercayaan nya terhadap ku.... :) aku bukan jenis yang senang dengan kebahagiaan tapi aku akan senang apabila ada orang yang meluahkan masalahnya pada ku... selagi aku boleh tolong... aku tolong dan jenis aku... aku tidak mahu kawan2 ku tergapai gapai tanpa tali.... akhir kata...

jadilah diri sendiri dan Allah itu sentiasa ada tidak kira susah ataupun senang.....

u r star!

i dont know but i do know god give me something that more valuable then i thought... thanks god.. u change me, u understand me, and u give me a bright star in my life... jerry.. u know when i see u.. i see like my brother.. deep in my heart, u r always there when i want to said something... u r the most amazing person that i ever found...

aku pun tak sangka, dalam dunia ni...ada juga org yang faham aku dan mengajar aku untuk menjadi seperti mereka... jerry, if u want to know , your personality and how u handle the situation already amaze me a lot. u know how i fill and u know how i need someone...

i love u as my big brother... u just like one in a million...thanks again for being such a good friend in my life... and i believe in something... when we lost someone, we can get another more good than before. is something i joy with cry....

he know how to entertain me even though he with another friend... so understanding yet he can really make me laughing.... thanks jerry... i dont know how to repay you... and i just want to say... u r my best buddy...hehehehe im so touching...

if u appreciate me.... i 10000kali ganda... appreciate u... if u make me laugh.. i can be more funnier than u thought... if u make me smile... i will cry with joy... but if u sad... be remind i always with you....

jerry, u just what i want... there is lot of human out there are not willing to hear my voice... but u willing to do so... u try your best even i not care about it... u know what i want and u know how to divide love and friendship.... that is a best apart about you when u hang out with me! that why i can fill that u r the most sincere guys and finally i found it!

hheheheheh a thousand of laugh... a thousand of smile... a million lovely side about u... bought of us can fill it.... but when u go... just see trough the sky that i just like a star... far away and isolated but still shine in your heart... heheheh : ) still remember when i was alone , u coming to fetch me and i talk about the star... that night so like a novel episode hahahaha

and it all began when i dance with your segment... we getting more closer and i never say twice with your offer... first time we meet at the library i still shy... but i try my best to talk... hahaha so silly...but from that moment i fill happy because i am a lonely person mannn!! hehehe

and u share your story... i fill that u believe me ... and i fill that i being appreciate all the time... thanks again my buddy... i just want to say thank u for everything.... maybe one day... if i or u get to be a tutor in any university or be a lecturer or be a teacher... i hope that we make a reunion... and we go on vacation hahahahaah that is my dream.... yet i will never forget the other friend also...

i not willing to compare but each of us have a unique side... so i do remind and care about it! : )))))

rezeki

know i really want to talked about our rezeki... maybe u havent seen it or u just ignore it what the hell going on hahahaa just joking...

bercakap mengenai rezeki... kita harus menilai bukan setakat duit yang menjadi persoalan... atau duit yang menjadi rezeki... kita selalu alpa yang rezeki itu datang dalam pelbagai bentuk dan cara... kalau kita bangun awal pagi... rezeki yang datang pada kita adalah roh kita yang masuk... kalau roh kita tak masuk... jawabnya kiok...

kedua adalah kesihatan yang kita miliki... ramai orang beranggapan benda itu remeh dan orang selalu tidak nampak... tapi once kita dah sakit baru tahu macam mana rasanya kalau kita sihat dan dapat bergerak... tapi bila kita sihat .. mula la kita buat benda yang tak senonoh... benda yang tak tercapai dek akal mu...

rezeki yang seterusnya adalah makanan... kalau bercakap pasal makanan ni.. memang sesuatu ang wajib kita anggap rezeki badan... sebab kat dunia ni... apa jer benda yang kita makan...semua berbayar... tapi kalau dalam hutan kita makan apa yang berada di hutan pula... allah itu maha kaya dan Allah tidak pernah berkira dalam segala hal.

rezeki itu juga datang dengan kemanisan kita dalam kehidupan... tak terjangkau apa yang kita fikirkan... cuma adakalanya kita alpa dan tidak mahu sedar dengan pemberian yang spontan daripada Allah... walhal nikmatnya ada dimana-mana.

when the time come.

have u ever fill... when your bare foot touch the ground? and walk trough the grass that very cold with moisture. have u ever fill when u see a sky u fill like flying up in the air...and you want to be there? have u ever fill when your heart start to beep that is the one of opportunity to u to do what u ever fill?

the world is so big, strong, livable, greenly, cool with all nature beside us... and i was wondering.. when human also like nature...always helping, sharing, loving. helping is apart of our value. tree help us to have an oxygen . tree also share us his fruit. and tree love us because when we hot, tree give her shade to us. did u ever think about it?

thankful to got... i always see a nature apart of my inspiration. apart of my study. what i call nature art. Allah gift is way too far more valuable then we ever met. but very unlucky who didnt see the nature is apart of our friend... we can be friend to anything... bird, cat and even plant... and i friend with them most rather than a human being... that why i always keep shut up and no to talked much with human being...

i fill like i can be freely to do what i want to do... my soul is free... and nature always beside me... thank to tree, flower and cat... u always accompany me when i alone... i never told that u always hear what is my heart talking about... Allah ..u r the greatest god in the world... u cant be compare by all mean... u just one. u show me the right path... and i beg u to go to my original place... i want my bare foot touch the grass at heaven... i want to meet tree that can talked... heheehe... Allah appreciate us all the time... he always never forget about us. he give as food, air, healthy but human still forget. normally, if someone didnt appreciate u at all... u will be sad.. but how god fill that always give us something that more worthy but didnt appreciate Allah at all?

so in this world... just a small matter to look at because what u see is just for a while.... akhirat is your true destination after this... when the time come.. u will know what is this all about... u still safe u still comfort but when u forget someone who love u... (god)... u will know how regret u are... u know god is the best to you to refer but still laughing and enjoying with life that just a while. i also a week person... i also have full of weeknesess. but i still try to rely on perfectionism ... why ? human is not perfect anymore...

when the time come... u will know what i talked about...

kerja ku kini

there have lots thing i have to clear.... assignment, idea, artwork, presentation. but for sure... everything have to be settle on time... tired... what can i say... but worthy and i love busy... busy is something that can make us more organised and disciplined . heheheh...

artwork that i have to submit in this week before semester break is batik... arghhhhhhhh!!!!!!! i dont have much time... i need to do it..!!! and also.. report... one more thing for sure... dancing practice.!!! fill regret but i have to... huhhu... to gain such experience is once in our life! btw... i have to stay fit... go to gym.. excercise for my routine... hehehe...

sometime, i like to think... to think about future.. think about what will going to happen next... ermmm what would my family doing now? and also my lovely friend... at uitm... at sibu.. at mukah... and one of my friend will going to get marriage .... huhuhuhu... btw...i hope u happy with your husband...

im just love my self right now... i love all my friend... i love my mother... but one thing for sure.. i love Allah.. i just want to be a good boy... i just want to finish and had what i havent had..... i want to see a world... i want to contribute to nation... i want to see my family happy... i want to reach a star...

what i want is... someone could bring me love... hehehehe... in my little dream... i want to have a friend that so caring towards me... i wish so... i want it perfect and i can be more worthy to the others... i want to help my friend and my family to get happiness. i always dream of someday... when i have a best friend.. he can get me smile... always want to be my side.. and i also get comfort... waaaaaaaa.... i wish to...

to tell it ... i want my friend always happy... always smile... i will try to solve they problem... i love to hear... i want to be the one who can know what is his problem... maybe i can solve it...

in this world... i can do anything what i love... what i do... maybe out there .... they dont know.. what is my intention... i want to be a nature human being... i want to be a person without rule... and being control by a system...i want to be free from anything!!!!!!!!!! yeahhhhhhh i want to be bird...

singapore trip!!!!

what can i say when we go over bridge to look another country it kind of fun and interesting... (sort of) anyway thanks to us that could make a paperwork very dash and rush... it not easy to get along with something new and worthy... thanks to jamil as a leader on this program. he have put his soul towards this trip... thanks a lot!

btw, trip to singapore is just like to kl... nothing much to compare but environment is quite greeny and windy... very peaceful with those tree for sure... but hot! the sun is very irritating while i walk around and that why tree is everywhere .... waaaaaaaaaaaa

first off all before i tell what happen at singapore... let i introduce u how to get in.... well it quite strict and have a lot of producer need to be follow... regardless to the safety and security we have to put away all forbidden thing such as chewing gum, shot gun , knife and etc. so that is a fist rule.... second need to bring bag. can u imaging every time u have to pass the migration u have to scan your bag? annoying but that the rule!

and then, first trip we go around singapore. lots of tree, less motorcycle, odd vehicle, and very beautiful and clean country... but they love to give compound on any wrong doing thing for example throwing rubbish. but good! to train people to be more discipline and fine attitude.

so we arrived at waterfront park... such a nice place just like holly wood but sorry at that time i dint change my money yet... so expensive!!!!!!!!!! i change rm 50 to singapore dollar... just get 19 dollar... and all food stuff is about 3 dollar above! anyway i didn't excited to eat at singapore because don t have any halal food... i just drink and drink and drink... hahahaha

never mind for that inconceivable small matter... furthermore is too expensive.... can t afford unless being sponsor by anak datok... hahahah i could shopping for souvenir that 2 for 10 dollar... just a little tiny key chain for 5 dollar!!!! crazy!!! i just see... not interested...!!! hahahaha

so we go trough monorail... free charge but u have to pay for second trip... heheheh... 3 dollar... still it quite expensive after u think about changing money.... well this experience taught us not to buy anything at singapore... just see and smell the food or odd souvenir hahahha nevertheless if u rich... just buy it... and then sold it to malaysian people... hahahaha

ermmm about the point we go to singapore... we have to hear the art talked that is so long and quite boring... bla bla bla although have a lot point to be heard still i see all of my friend were sleeping, go to toilet and since it was a bored art talked, infront of the chair 80 percent was gone hahahaha... so art talked being held at national university singapore... very big university... just like ukm... huhuhuhu.... more advance and high techno... great experience to be gain... hehehehe

pm zul is one of my lecturer ... what can i talked about my lecturer is... he is very good thinker... how he want to express what is abstract in sculpture and with his ideology trough certain issue is quite interesting... he like to mesmerized all retro concept in his work... i remember on his solo exhibition about negaraku... i was very attract with the way he story the way he put the idea and the way he do his art work... it seem very abstract but trough on his behalf i like to say.... he is apart of my inspiration... i keep looking on his artwork so admire able to me to imitation hehehe.... yeah u know if u want to get the idea... u have to follow the big boss in art industry... to make your artwork powerfull u must fall in love with someone idea... and that will make u perfect in doing researching... hehehehe

so after that... we go eating... luckyly this time we dont have to find a food court or what so ever hehehehe.... but after we eating... we have a problem with a bus driver... i dont know what the real problem until the driver get angry to us because of late... well he dont know the real situation and yet the small matter dont have to be bigger... i was thankful to god because had finish our journey safely...and back to malaysia in time! hahahaah malaysia is a best country... because we are malaysian people of course we know the best! halal food anywhere and the culture are so beautiful!!! hahahahaha so the next rip is to bali...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! soon we go ! i have to say!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love my batch at 23 2009 and 2010 because we already apart of this trip!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahaha starting from penang, sarawak, terengganu, and finally singapore... i so thankful!!!!!!!! muah muah love u guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!